We shared the joy
And shared the pain
Of four forgotten years
And as my heart
Recalls the joys
My eyes recall the tears
For although life
Is never perfect
And things were not quite right
I miss the silence
And the peace
I felt deep in the night
In our great plans
Of future
There was a tiny flaw
You grew to know me
As no other
And rejected what you saw
This rejection come
Has filled me with
Despair and uncertainty
And I’ll spend my days
Searching my soul
In hopes of finding me
I feel to be
So unimportant
To future and to history
I matter not
To the World
And least of all to me
The feelings of
Incompetence
They fill me up inside
And leave me wishing
That I could
Just lay down and die
I feel to be
Not good enough
For our society
I want to erase
My own existence
From future history
I feel to be
Simply not worth
The effort took to kill
For broken hearts
And shattered dreams
Have took with them my will
I felt that my
Profound words
Would help someone, someday
And now I turn
To them myself
And try to find the way
I felt to be
Going somewhere
Some great destiny in time
But now I feel
There’s nothing left
In this destiny of mine
I once taught that
Everyone’s life
Regardless of how bland
Was still worth living
If nothing else
To see the beauty in the Land
But now the Land
It has been changed
And it holds beauty not
It holds instead
The piercing pain
The future’s presence brought
I was a man
Of simple dreams
Who held my life so dear
I held a vision
Of the World
As someplace very near
But now the World
It seems so small
So distant and obscure
And my purpose here
Within the World
Is something that’s unsure
My purpose once
Was to show the World
Some peace and serenity
But now the meaning
Of life and world
Seems utter insanity
When we were married
We were so young
But we loved all through the tears
But then one day
As prophesy fulfilled
You left me lonely to face the years
And we had problems
Throughout the times
Yet still we held the love
And then one day
You forgot the times
And quietly died the dove
And we had children
From our love
Their faces shown so bright
And as I think of all
The events I’ll miss
I cry through the long night
For they shall never
Know me well
Although they’ll come to see
But I’ll not be “Daddy”
In my children’s eyes
Just a piece of history
I’ll not be important
In their lives
Just an old forgotten toy
I’ll not get to share
The everyday
Sadness and the joy
They’re innocence
And dancing eyes
Is something I will miss
A little hug
An “I love you Dad”
A daughter’s goodnight kiss
The quietness of
A saddened heart
When life’s not understood
When things could not
Be explained
They’d know that Daddy would
I long so much
To see their eyes
And hold them oh so tight
As they tell me of
A child’s broken heart
In the stillness of the night
Just to be there
Every morning
Every night and every day
To hold them and
To love them so
And to quietly guide their way
To know the pleasures
That come with
Being Father of my girls
And to know that it
Will never be
Puts heartache in my world
But of all the things
That hurt me so
I still don’t understand
What took my life
Away and left
Me alone to face this land
For although love
Is never perfect
I thought ours to be strong
Until the day
You came to me
And said it was all wrong
And then you turned
And walked away
And you took my future too
But what hurts me most
Is the pain I feel
Matters not at all to you
I do not know
What made you change
And do these things to me
But the promises
Of love we made
Hurts me ironically
The promises and
The love we made
It filled my life with verse
And now the same
Which brought life joy
Brings to my life a curse
Im cursed to walk
My life in pain
In fear again to care
‘Cause if Im hurt
Like this again
My soul will disappear
And though I know
That you care not
Of my future History
I ask that when you see the moon
You’ll quietly think of me
For somewhere out there
In that night
Lies a man who loved you so
A small and feeble
Little man
With a broken heart of gold
And although he’s
Been all used up
And struggles with each day
He’d give up for you
His very life
Then quietly go away
So I will live
My life alone
And try to wait patiently
And I’ll always hope
Against the odds
Someday you’ll return to me
So now that time
Has ended
And all my days stand still
I leave with you
In honest hope
My last testament and will
To you I will
My smiling eyes
You saw at mornings light
And for my girls
I will to them
A soul of endless flight
Please keep and guard
Them closely
As you pass throughout your years
When you see the moon
Recall a man
Who’s living dead and filled with tears
And in my heart
There holds the hope
Of a beautiful white dove
But until that time
Could be again
I’ll just say…Goodbye My Love
